Tuesday 12 September 2017

Patience and Predictability

Life is never predictable.  I thought I knew what to expect of the past couple weeks.  I did 2 of the 3 chemo drugs back in early 2015 for breast cancer, and I did radiation just this May - so I should know what to expect and based on that I would be feeling pretty good by now.

Not exactly - of course I did radition of a different kind and then almost immediately did chemo.  And my brain had lesions in it that were affecting my vision.  And later in the 2 weeks found out I had an infection layered on top.  So my mobility has been really limited - only walk with a cane and someone's arm, need help going to the washroom. I also became weaker overall and then had the normal chemo stuff - mouth sores that limited what I could eat, grey days etc. My vision issues (basically double vision) have not resolved so that added to the muddy mix and made reading and texting a challenge 

The good news is I'm seeing some improvement in most areas.  My eye is opening, I have moments of seing "one" of something, infection is resolving, strength building.  I am hoping for a big recovery week so I'm ready for another round of chemo starting in a week.

Friday an "access" team will try to put either a port or pick line into my chest/neck or arm, depending on what they think.  I'll be happy when that's done.

I had some bright points during the chemo/radiation storm - my cousins Brant and Shawn were in Calgary on their Western Canada tour ;) last Thursday and stopped by to see me.  My mom's cousin Ellen was in Calgary this past weekend so we relived some of our July lake adventure. 

So I was reminded you can't really predict what is going to happen.  And patience is everything.  And I am so grateful for everyone's love, messages, prayers, support.  And we take for granted being able to get up, go to the washroom and eat what we want. 

Tricia