Thursday 5 September 2013

Ant hills

September 5, 2013...really? How is that possible.  Life continues to roar forward with an incredible pace, and my blogging energy just can't keep up.  With over 8 months since my last post there is simply no way to report even a summary of that period.  So I'm just going to cover my health and a few thoughts and hope that is enough. 

I passed the 5 year mark post-transplant #3 June 12 and also marked 16 years since the famous golf day June 21.  With Alberta's floods marking that day, it was an interesting date to unfortunately see so many people's lives changed overnight, and I was so lucky (and most of my close friends and family) to be spared, but a strange reminder of how life can change without warning overnight.

Since my last post, my body has been sending a few messages of weariness - mainly my digestive system and bladder - and so the past few months have been a series of blood work, urinanalysis, colonoscopy, stool collections and an upcoming cystoscopy - really fun stuff!  Doctors have eliminated some more critical sources of the issues, and with one more medication and a nutrition plan in place, I am fairly close to making the "bumps in the road" somewhat less prominent.  In the bigger picture, I am of course beyond the 2-3 years the doctors hoped to give me back in 2008 with the experimental protocal pre-transplant #3.  Which of course is worth celebrating - and if you're around October 5 and want to go for a walk, I will be out for Light the Night (see the link on the sidebar to join the team or support the team).

Certainly my health issues have not kept me from my favourite pasttime - travel of course, and since my last post I have experienced exceptional moments in Maui, Vegas (x2), Vancouver (Shelley's book launch!), Edmonton, Regina and New York.  And next Wednesday I head to a couple Greek islands, Italy and Germany (another visit with Oliver!) for some more discovering.  I also have not let up on my volunteer contributions to improving the cancer patient journey with my work with Alberta Health Services strategic clinical network and advisory council.   And on top of the milestones I mentioned above, had time to celebrate mom and dad's 45th anniversary and dad's 65th birthday with some exceptional focus.  So the roadbumps really don't win.

And if I needed inspiration to further put my issues and uncertainty about the future in proper background position, I have had it from so many sources this year.  Beyond the every day remarkable inspiration my brother gives me in his ability to face unspeakable challenge, and the fuel I always feel from my family and friends, I had a few further amazing examples worth mentioning:

 - The strength shown by a close friend and coworker when her husband, also a friend, found out he had terminal cancer in early March and passed away only a month later.  The way in which she, her husband and their 8 year old son squeezed every moment they had together, managing not to be consumed by the unfairness of the shortness of their time together, was increidble, and her strength to digest her loss and navigate a new world as a new single mom continues to be amazing.

- The tenacity and spirit shown by a little girl named Kinsley, who came into the world earlier than planned in January (due in late April) at 2.3 lbs, and her parents, sister and family in suriving the months while she fought in ICU, made me remember that the body can do anything when the mind and spirit are engaged.  Seeing her giggling a month ago, I was not surprised but clearly overjoyed when her mom (my cousin) reported this week she has no development issues to speak of.

- Up for a visit to Dr. Aung in Edmonton yesterday, I sat down in the waiting area and noticed a young girl, likely pre-teen age, in a wheelchair accross from me.  She had some sort of computer attached to it, and her parents sat by her side, wiping her mouth every few minutes for the drool that escaped.  She stole a number of looks at me, and one of those I just locked eyes with her for as long as she wanted to, at which point I realized she was basically there, just trapped in a body that didn't allow her to be her age and do anything that she wanted to, and she was just staring at me almost to try to let me see her through her eyes and not her body.

And if I didn't already realize that stuff in the past few months were just road bumps, these inspirations remind me they are more like anthills.  Cheers to everyone and your anthills :)