Since my last post the grey lightened each day as I'd hoped and by week 3 I even tried a bit of work out for a few hours of each day. I managed to get some tangible things done to contribute to a global internal project and enjoyed the taste or normal life that I was craving. Also a bit more tiring than I had expected - turns out "week three good" is Sooooooo much better than "week three grey" but it is still not normal "pre chemo normal life good". In any case, got through the week and managed a few visits with friends and family, knowing the storm is coming tomorrow.
I explained to a few that saw me this past while, as a blonde or brunette, that I probably look better than I feel when they complemented me on how well I look. I'm kind of like a Mr. Potato Head right now...before I put on all my parts, my hearing aids, reading glasses, makeup, hair, breasts and neck banadages, I look a lot different. But with parts ready to go, it seems to work and no one would guess I'm sick at all. And while I don't have an issue with my bald head whatsooever, the energy it takes to even just respond to a stranger who gives you the sympathetic "look" is exhausting. So sometimes the Potato Head allows for less energy lost.
I know all of you don't care what I look like and just love and support the potato and what's inside, and I'm so grateful that you do :) Cheers